soo..

it has been brought to my attention that i havent been updating...

and tis is true.. cuz its been like forever sense i have updated.. and im sry.. i have a myspace.. and such... and life is busy right now...

since the last entry.. i am much better.. better mentally..and spiritually.. im more stable.. cuz guess what.. i remembered who was going to help me through everything.. and i actually started to relie on Him again.. and all became much much better..

plus i only have like the greatest friends ever!... they are really supportive.. and i love each and everyone...

-Woo

ps.. im going to have a more meaningful update soon i promise...

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so...

i dont exactly want to post want im going through.. but just kno.. that i need support... oki...

i guess i fell hard.. and getting back up is the hardest part..

i have come to many conclusions...

-woo

wow.. sunday..Gods day.. the day that is officially.. His... and wow today i was hit with the word... which is always nice

preacher today.. right on target.. spoke to me... and i sung today in the morning and evening service.. and i was so nervous.. and i usually am not at all.. reason being.. my song revealed where i am spiritually.. and i feel like everyone expects me to be perfect all the time... i feel guilty when i go through struggles...

and i guess i shouldnt.. im human.. like everyone else.. i fight with the person i used to be.. i watch my godly side and my worldly side fight.. the sad thing is.. is with just a word i can determine the winner.. yet... i just sit there and watch...

i watch the struggle.. and Jesus is next to me.. and He is looking at me.. trying to catch my eye.. and i wont look at Him... i wont do it... cuz when i do... i kno im wrong.. i kno that i need to change some places.. i realize how much i dont trust Him...

im struggling.. i miss my earthly father a lot.. my mother and i get along perty well.. but my dad and i are a like in so many ways.. the way we approach things are the same... he helps me spiritually as well.. and i understand and respect every word he says... and hes not here.. and he gets back from may from his second tour in Iraq.. and i pray his last..

but yea.. thats where im at guys..

-woo

so much is easier said than done..

so much is overwhelming when it shouldnt be..

i look at all the advice i give.. but i take none for myself...

i need a girl friend right now.. and a shoulder to vent on... note i said vent

too often i feel alone..

too often i feel like a place myself in positions of only failure...

too often i dont make sense..

i dont cry enough.. but i feel too much

-woo

so ive been on a song writing rampage i guess you could call it... i went through a dry spell... and here i am writing more than one a day... really my songs reflect where i am spiritually.. since i truly believe the words are God inspired.. when im not close to the Father.. my song writing stops... interesting huh?...

well neways i wrote a new song.. about focusing on Jesus... and its very relevant in any way you look at it..

its time we as Christians in the government.. in school.. in church... in our social groups stop worrying about what others are thinking and saying about us.. stand up for what is right and just... stop falling into the worlds trap of "its all about us" and focus on Jesus..

think if we were focused on Jesus.. and His plans.. we wouldn't have churches splitting up over carpet... we wouldn't have Christians struggling with depression.. we wouldnt have the "hypocritical" image that we all seem to carry now a days...

to focus on Jesus would mean we would have to admit its not all about us.. and everything about Him... we would have to admit that we fall short on everything we do and the only reason that we have a second chance is because He got on that cross and took it all on for US...

i often refer to the worlds traps as a big hole... it looks good from the outside.. i mean "hey why not have physical pleasure before marriage.. it looks good.. it feels good.." etc.. but in reality it is just a big dark hole.. and once you fall into it.. there is only one way you can get back out.. and get clean again.. and His name is Jesus...

we need to focus.. focus on Him.. His plans.. His wants.. versus us and our plans and our wants... we need faith... just a little... i can just picture the Father beside me.. saying into my ear.. "is it too much to ask?"..

-woo